I can't believe it. Of all people to talk to...of all subjects. When I went back to Duo's house, I thought I was crazy. Why was I going back? Why didn't I stay away like I was supposed to?
I don't know exactly what happened, but there were people upstairs and Trowa and Duo were in the kitchen. They must have been busy, as they didn't even notice me enter. Of course, that didn't matter to me. I figured that I could just go out back, think about everything, everything I got myself into. And then, I saw Quatre.
I don't know why I sat next to him. Or why I began pouring (at least part) of my heart and soul out to him. For the first time in my life, someone was speaking to me seriously, without wanting anything FROM me. It was a strange feeling, a catharsis of some kind.
Even now, I don't remember half the things I said. It was days ago, and at night, nonetheless. Even so, I won't forget one thing that he said to me. When he talked about himself. You see, this was also new to me. While I wasn't forced to give information, it still me I was speaking of. My feelings I was purging. But this time, it was different.
He spoke and told me a little about himself as well.
Little as it was, it meant a great deal to me. To me, it meant that he didn't just look at me as an old enemy that happened to be at the same place as him, but as an accquaintance. Better than nothing, I suppose.
I cannot promise any of you that I will not die. I cannot promise you that should I win, I will not kill him. But I can promise one thing.
I am a lady of my word. And I will keep it.